a thousand tears she had cried.
that game. that pettiness. that incident.
tried the very best.
but still couldn't get hold of it.
voices were sullen, faces all damp.
all that can be heard, was solemn breathing and shrieks of agony.
once so loved, and yet all that can be felt is sadness beyond description.
was the love equal, or just one sided?
speeches were difficult, each choked with tears.
thoughts about ending this game were raised.
but the love is strong to overcome any obstacles.
she promised.
and it will remain that way forever.
she's sorry for the wrongs she did. she really cherishes her boy.
she just want him to know that her world is only him.
without him, she is good as gone.
that 3 words; i love you. is only for him.
i love you dear, i really do. i promise to be your lil'princess, forever true and good to you.
i PROMISE. (:
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dear diary,
today was my very first canoe land training, and with the j2s at that. o.O was kinda prepared for that worst or something. Was a lil unprepared actually.

Okay. Let me start from PE lesson today. It was so so so GREAT and FUN! lol. You may think that i'm sadistic by saying that after you read on what exactly we did for PE. Today's lesson came unexpected. The sky was overcast but it seemed really cool and it's what everyone would consider 'good weather'. Little did i know that we were in for a big surprise from mr isaac lim. Alright. Started off with a round with the class. But mr weirdo said that he wasn't happy coz the class wasn't DEE-SIR-PLEENED. So fine. We jogged the second round. After which, he gathered us and i thought we were almost free to go. noooo. He asked us to run to the gate and climb over it and run to the front gate of CJC. Well okie. We did that too. He was there awaiting us. After we reached there, he brought us to the drain just next to the entrance, under the sign- Catholic Junior College. Oh mann. It was as dirty as some polluted canal or smth. Plus, it was starting to RAIN! Next, I'm sure you'll be able to guess what we were supposed to do. YES. walk through the dirty, pitch dark, uber-filled cobweb drain as a class. It was like a tunnel leading to the other end of cjc. Can you imagine that. ugrhh. It just kinda reminded me of RINJANI days! :) where we had to walk through dirty canals in order to get to the other side. This time was better as we needn't necessarily touch the water. By opening our legs wide and keeping our heads low and bent, we would be able to get through it. Yeahh! as a class, we did get through that together, after much shouting, panicking and disgust. haha. And yayy! we were finally out and before that, we could see light emerging from within the end of the tunnel! haha. Oh yes. Kudos to tammy for joining us too, though she didn't have her PE attire on. She was so super wet after it. Though she had a match anw, she still joined us.

After the whole lesson, lim explained the lesson behind everything we did. Basically, we should be grateful and thankful for what we have now. When lim told us to go through the drain and our first reaction was "oooh. my new shoes. how? later our shoes will be wet..." So he went on to tell us about how other unfortunate people had no shoes or even feet. And here we are, 'squandering our privilege'. he's right in some way. yupps. It was indeed a lesson learnt.

Had chinese lesson after that. Completed a composition and handed it in on time! lol. I used to be really slow you see. So anyway, school ended pretty soon and I had to wait for vince to look for the captain and ask if we were allowed to the water training. And guess wad. We ended up training with the j2s. It was strenuous actually. Coz most of the training focused on weights training, which vince and i needed badly. lol. Just looking at how the seniors train is really scary. We were to complete 10 exercises but as there was not enough time, we ended completing only 5. But it was great! coz we had a very nice senior- melissa. :) She was really nice to us. and i jus realised after 1 and a half set that the action of passing the medicine ball was a stroke for canoe.
Oh yes. Before that we also did the sprint run, in which we were supposed to sprint along the length of the track and jog along the width for 5 rounds. It was my first time doing that as i missed tues's morning training. I lagged behind most of the times.Sighh. Just couldn't catch up with them during the sprint. Ahhhh i gotta train hard!!

2.5 hrs passed pretty fast with the canoe teamates and by then, it was already 6pm. WE WERE STARVING. haha. dear and i hadn't had anything since 6 in the morning. grrr. Thus we had noodle king and well, was quite disturbed by the msg he received. sighh. it's okayy. I'm just glad that i was able to feel alrite after a while. Dear, i just hope that you wun think that i'm being unreasonable again. I am trying my best to be more understanding.

Sooo tired when i got home. Almost missed my stop on the bus. Uh oh. gotta go now. yikes!! my new phone on the way! will update soooon. hav yet to complete my entry anw. smileee!! =)